Mend my Broken Heart
Maybe you wake up one morning bewildered, frustrated and upset. You say to yourself as you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock, “I’m over it.” You fight the tears from streaming down your eyes wishing it never happened. It feels like a hangover not caused by the effects of excess drinking but caused by the emotional strain that you endured last night when he said, “It’s over.”
Or maybe you find yourself preparing for a family reunion; cooking baked beans and helping your mother make potato salad. You’re sweating because it’s hot standing in front of the grill flipping burgers and barbecuing chicken. You put the food in the car and head over to the park to enjoy the festivities for the day. A fight breaks out and you find out that who you thought was your father was actually your stepdad. You battle trying to put the pieces together and you begin to feel this gapping hole in your chest. You begin to ask yourself, “Who am I?” Why did you lie to me?” “You didn’t have the decency to even tell me?” Questions surface your mind as you crawl up in a ball broken and in pain.
Maybe it was you who felt pain and distress when you found out she was lying to you about being with another man. You go from person to person trying to find answers, wondering what you did that caused her to go outside of marriage. The vows you both wrote together are merely just a sentiment of what you hoped would last. You feel joy ripped out of you, you hope for revenge and wish God would just heal your broken heart.
What if I told you your pain was necessary? Your pain is the bridge to your promise. It hurts to feel your heart broken and it hurts to know that someone close to you has the power to break it. The pain you feel is the perfect opportunity for you to be restored in a way that covers what you shoved away a long time ago. What you don’t understand is that some of us have been cracked for a long time. We filter what initially hurt us and cope with the pain in ways that may be detrimental to us. There are those who use alcohol, drugs, porn, sex or even work to cope with the pain but it’s always that one blow that leaves us completely broken. This is when we must turn to God to heal not just our current area of devastation but all areas of our life that we have turned away.
Restoration is what God uses to turn us back to Him. We lose sight of Him because we live busy lives, we’re focused on our destiny, or series of events, causing us to omit God out of our lives. Once we put our trust and focus on things that make us feel good that isn’t Christ, we at times set ourselves up to experience pain. When you workout at the gym, the pain isn’t from the fact that you’re doing something great with your life. The pain is from the targeted muscles that haven’t been used that is now kicked into high gear to work toward building something new. This is what happens in your life when you experience a broken heart. Because you asked for a heart of flesh and not a heart of stone, you become susceptible to things that may hurt you. You become vulnerable and that’s a scary place. But it’s your vulnerability that God wants to use and build you up in a way in which opens you up to promises that only God can pour into because you’re open. Being broken is sometimes a way for God to mend you the way He desires for you to be and not what you conditioned yourself to be without Him.
I feel brokenness is one of the best things that could ever happen to us. I remember playing basketball with some friends while in college. I was really “ballin” back then! I went up for a rebound and landed awkwardly on another persons leg. I thought it was a sprain but I have never heard a sprained ankle pop as loud as it did. I waited a couple of days and the pain got worse so I finally went to the doctor. They stated to me that I had fractured my ankle. I received treatment and was able to get back on the court after about 3-5 months. The problem with the fractured ankle is that I still feel the pain sometimes till this day. Here I am, nearly 8 years later and I still feel it swell up at times. The question I ask myself is, “What if I had broken it?” Did you know that if something is broken, it can be mended back together stronger than it was before? You see, the fracture saved me from a broken ankle but it didn’t save me from lingering pain. Sometimes it’s better for us to be broken than fractured. Your broken heart is only temporary. If you allow God to restore you, what you thought was broken will be made whole 10x’s stronger than before.
We all have experienced broken hearts. God sent His comforter, the Holy Spirit, to comfort us in our broken nature. Through the disobedience of Adam and Eve, we have the possibility of experiencing pain through brokenness. God created us to be made whole, that’s why restoration is so important. God never intended for us to stay broken, in fact, he said in Revelation 21:4 “He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.” His Word goes even further in Isaiah 53:4-6 which says, “Surely he has borne our griefs and carried our sorrows; yet we esteemed him stricken, smitten by God, and afflicted. But he was wounded for our transgressions; he was crushed for our iniquities; upon him was the chastisement that brought us peace, and with his stripes we are healed. All we like sheep have gone astray; we have turned—every one—to his own way; and the Lord has laid on him the iniquity of us all.” Jesus, himself, has experienced what if feels like to have a broken heart so that you wouldn’t have to.
Let God mend your brokenness. Forgive those who have hurt you and turn to God to restore you. You are needed in this earth and people need to see the whole you to experience the work that God is doing in your life. Do not fret, your promise is on the way. The pain you feel now is only temporary. It’s needed so that you can know what it feels like to be made completely whole. Your wholeness not only benefits you but it benefits the world. We are saved by how you overcome. Change your perception on how you feel and regulate your mind on how He bore what you feel now so that you could be free from suffering. Put it on the cross and continue to ask God for guidance. It will never be easy but if you trust Him, it will be worth it. Your BETTER is on the way.